Another one goes to the dust.

Hello, it's been a long time since I've last blogged. Things have been pretty hectic lately, with exams going on at the moment and some other stuffs. Going into bouts of depression at night where there is NO ONE I could talk to (the ones I can talk to anyway) which further makes things worse sometime. Everything just starts falling apart for me and I don't know why. Studies is going well, everything is going well but I just find myself staring off into the wall.

I miss my best friend.

I miss the shopping call.
I miss just having someone that I'm not afraid to talk to that wouldn't judge me.
I wish I could trust someone as easily as I can
I wish I didn't care so much because it just hurts me in the end anyway.





I learnt that not everyone can accept the truth, but for me I believe that no matter what happenes it's still gonna shit in your face in the end anyway so why not have someone who cares to play the evil one to tell it to you so you can do something about it rather than living happily in obliviousness. I learnt that someimtes being a good friend also means that you're being nosy. It's so hard to care.

I don't like being lied to, and neither do I like to lie. I want to be honest but I'm afraid to hurt anyone. See the problem?

I just feel like whatever I'm doing at the moment is just wrong. Anything I do just srcews up in some way. I just want to shut up, go to a corner and just be myself for an hour with my teddy bear because he just be these for me.  Must be those depressing period where everything just sucks.

 

Being alone is easier lol not caring so much is easier as well. Can't wait for the holidays to come. I think the exams are messing with me. either that or I'm just PMSing I think coz all my pimples are coming out. God I just hate those emo depressing times.

Am I a bitch?

:(